"What lies behind us, and what lies before us are small matters
compared to what lies within us."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

"What are you thinking???!!!!!"

Someone said this to me the other day about adopting. I'm sure many other people think it too. The person said to me, "You will never qualify, your house is too small. You don't have time for all this! Put your kids in school and stop all this adoption stuff. You need to take time and think of yourself for a change.". So, of course, me being the worry wort that I am, started to imagine all the things that could go wrong.

What if..... we don't pass the homestudy?
What if......we can't get the money together?
What if......the country closes?
What if......we can't take the kids with us on the trip?
What if.......Nastya gets brain damage before we can get her!

And on and on I thought until I had to go watch a re-run of "Roseanne" on tv to shut my mind up. (I also felt compelled to eat several almond M&M's, but only the brown ones, so that was more healthy.)

Well, honestly, the person is probably right. I am thinking of myself. I could no more stop trying to adopt than I could stop breathing. How can I explain that these two girls who I have never meant are supposed to be in our family. I don't think God is kidding about this! When he says "Go!" He means it!

Besides, who needs a break from these cuties! Ok, maybe sometimes!


  1. Ha. I hear that all the time. Why do you keep adopting? Why are you taking another foster child? You are CRRAAAZZZYYY. Etc Etc. I don't have any ready answers. I just know what is inside of me and as long as I can, I will. I've never adopted internationally although I want to. I'm sort of working on it but then got another foster baby recently so will have to wait a while longer. Your family is beautiful. Keep it up and good luck on your journey!!!

  2. I bet I know who said that to you.

    You know, I think you should do what you feel is best for you and your family. I can see how someone on the outside looking in could think that a person who already has a lot on her plate shouldn't add to her load. But if it is not a burden to you, but your greatest joy in life, then you have to go for it. I wish all the best for you and your family!

  3. We've gotten this ourselves. Some of it seems true to the world...we ourselves don't have the money to do this, but God says he will provide. Our house is not huge, but neither are the shared rooms and beds that our Little One is in right now sharing with way more children than she will share with in our home. I am reminded of the song by Chris Tomlin(I think) that says "and if our God is for us, then what could ever stop us?" This both strengthens me as well as silences those who would have us stop, because if God doesn't want this to happen, it won't but because I know God is for us...well nothing can ever stop us. :) Praying you will be rooted in confidence and will be wrapped in comfort when the doubters speak.

  4. Hi, Catherine. I just saw you commented on my blog quite a while ago. I don't keep up very well! Don't let the negative people get you down...and do throw away all the spare socks you mentioned in a previous post! Both will improve your day tremendously! LOL. Good luck with getting Moira and Nastya home. :)

  5. Catherine, if *I* can get through this, and get home successfully with our little man, YOU can too!! Don't even think about what the nay sayers have to say... listen to God!!

  6. Your family is beautiful! Wanted to give you a hug too. You are following a powerful God and He will carry you through all of those "what ifs" until you reach your precious girls!


  7. When God speaks...we listen. The prayer I was told to pray, "Lord, if you DON"T want this adoption to happen, please don't allow it despite all my effort. Thy will be done." Works for me!

  8. Catherine,
    I did email you in response to the comment you left on my blog. I'm not sure you got it. Still following along on yours!! Praying for you and those girls!!


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