"What are you thinking???!!!!!"

Someone said this to me the other day about adopting. I'm sure many other people think it too. The person said to me, "You will never qualify, your house is too small. You don't have time for all this! Put your kids in school and stop all this adoption stuff. You need to take time and think of yourself for a change.". So, of course, me being the worry wort that I am, started to imagine all the things that could go wrong.

What if..... we don't pass the homestudy?
What if......we can't get the money together?
What if......the country closes?
What if......we can't take the kids with us on the trip?
What if.......Nastya gets brain damage before we can get her!

And on and on I thought until I had to go watch a re-run of "Roseanne" on tv to shut my mind up. (I also felt compelled to eat several almond M&M's, but only the brown ones, so that was more healthy.)

Well, honestly, the person is probably right. I am thinking of myself. I could no more stop trying to adopt than I could stop breathing. How can I explain that these two girls who I have never meant are supposed to be in our family. I don't think God is kidding about this! When he says "Go!" He means it!

Besides, who needs a break from these cuties! Ok, maybe sometimes!